Feeling lost on your soul path

Our soul journey is a happy and truly connected stroll, of course there are ups and downs, but we can handle them. We can remain focused, connected and in tune with what our soul wants. We are guided along gently and have trust that the Universe has our back.

When we don’t listen to our guidance we can end up anywhere!! But the important thing is to know that we can get back to where our soul is truly happy, the path that we have chosen for ourselves in this lifetime, the path that is ours.

When I think back I can see that I became conscious about my journey nearly 10 years ago. I was a mum and a wife, a sister and a daughter and a daughter in law. I was a friend and a support person and I was a busy hospitality employee. I was a lot of things but deep down I wasn’t truly me.

Its funny how one person can clear away the clouds in your vision, clouds that you didn't even know existed, and open you up to the reality that has become your life. Don’t get me wrong, I loved my family, my friends and my job but somehow I had forgotten to love me…….

I had become an existence, I was there for everyone else and there was no time left for me. Those energetic cords that I had shared, had slowly drained me until I was an exhausted mess. I didn’t sleep properly. I didn’t eat properly. I didn’t exercise properly. I didn’t love properly. I felt all the ‘esses - useless, worthless, loveless, tiredness and the list went on…...

Once the clouds had dispersed I could see the path that lay in front of me. I began to see that I was worth it and I did deserve it. This was the time that I became conscious about me, conscious about who I really was in life and I began to question my purpose, my soul path and what made ME happy...this didn’t mean that I totally forgot to care about my family!! It just meant that it was okay to think about me, to take time out for me, to leave the dishes until later whilst I did something for me, that it was okay to go to uni and follow dreams that I had from a child, it was okay to spend money on my health and well-being and it was okay for me to love who I was. The expectations that others had for me, the expectations that I had set for myself, the expectations of what is was to be a ‘good’ mother that were set by peers, media and society, they all had to go!!

From that day I have discovered and rediscovered a lot about myself and my soul path. It hasn’t been easy!! And although I have put a lot of time and effort into me, somehow recently I have found myself wandering off my soul path and picking up some habits from the past that needed to be left behind…...

Only the other day I realised that I was stressed again, stressed for time and pushing myself too hard to achieve unrealistic goals. I was not sleeping well, not eating well and definitely not exercising well. Over the year I have had a couple of huge signs to slow down, a car accident and a back injury, and yet I had slowly crept back to my state of stress and overwhelm, I had forgotten to look after me and what I needed. But still I pushed on…..studying full-time, working part-time, cooking, cleaning, shopping and trying to find time to fit in friends and fun (the last two never happened).

Now after that light bulb moment I am ready to refocus on my soul path, connecting with my true self and spending time and energy on what makes me truly happy, walking the path of my soul’s purpose. Letting go of expectations, where I should be in 2, 5, 10 years from now, what my soul path looks like, what my house and garden should look like!!

For me, my soul path is connecting with Mother Earth - spending time in the garden, growing beautiful chemical free herbs and veggies and then using them to cook nourishing meals for myself and my family - spending quality time with my family and doing things for them that make them happy and finally, working with women, using my skills as a healer to help them discover their soul purpose, to connect with themselves at a deeper level, to tune into their body and nourish their soul, to help them discover their own journey to healthy living.

I have decided to defer my studies for at least this semester and maybe even longer!! I have had to let go of the end result, remembering why I had begun the course in the first place and how those opportunities had shifted. It is time to focus on now.

And the now is spending time with family and friends, supporting women and children to connect with their true self, spending time with Mother Earth and focusing on happiness and health :)